What's wrong with me?

Sometimes I wonder... what's wrong with me?

I'm a good person. I treat others with respect. I work at not interrupting someone when they are speaking. I try to not air dirty laundry (mine or others) in public. I do my best to listen to someone when they need to talk about a problem... rather than tell them how to solve their problem. I try really hard to do things to make my home with my partner a better, more comfortable place... and I try really hard to do that for community, too.

Yet...

I get disrespected by the people I treat with respect. I am repeatedly interrupted in group discussions. People seem to think it's okay to shame and embarrass me... in public... yet hate it when others do that to them. And I hardly have anyone who is willing to actually listen to me. But man... I have people ready to step in and run my life because that's apparently what i need.

These are not actions of unconditional love. These are actions of conditional love. I do what others want and they will love me. I be who they think I should be and I'm worthy of their love.

I want people to share my life with. I just don't want conditions... where I have to change to be worthy of their respect, support, and/or love. I want respect, support, and love because of who I am, not who they want me to be.